Self Healing Memos- Sharing Love with Others

I started a new job last month. And one thing which I have to stop and appreciate, is the blessing of having a really nice colleague.

We dont go around finding nice coworker everywhere, who take us in, train us, give us all they can give.

To him, explaining the process was not enough, he made sure im practicing infront of him, made sure I see him working , made sure to explain every single detail that is there has been, and might be. Going all above and beyond, with full passion and dedication.

There will be more posts about this.

But I wanted to stop and reflect, how do we make sure, these good people, who care, know that they are unique, and their kind is “endangered”. How many times do we stop to make the good acts visible, say them out loud, and tell the person thank you for being who you are.

Look around, in your work place, neighborhood, building, family, friends, the regular shops you go to everyday, and make sure to share that one special something that you like about these good people. It is called soul mending. Do more of that. Do it more than complaining about all the wrong people and wrong acts. Tell those special people, all the beautiful things you see in them. Believe me, there will be a moment when they do the same to others, and a moment where someone does it to you.

Image: Sharing Prague nature.

Short Self Healing Memos-Personal Relationships

After a disappointment from any close person , a storm of hatred, disgust and a little of self blame passes.

The self talk:

Eventually, I know I will let go and forgive,because Im a good person, & it is the least of what I owe to myself ; inner peace. I also know I will not forget; (I actually should not even) ; those who failed the test, they could have passed but chose to fail on purpose. I did my best, and I gave everything and everyone my full, I am responsible of what I have given, and not of what they gave in return.

Remind yourself that it’s only you, who can set the boundaries, only you, who takes care of you, and you, who teaches others how to treat you and only you who should never betray YOU.

Freedom, is extremely underrated.

Image : the tender colors of Prague

If you procrastinate, get overwhelmed from small things, this is helpful to know…

This is my second month in CBT, or cognitive behavioral therapy, and I am learning so much about myself on day to day basis. Thanks to my therapist who is very keen on delivering her message as a therapist, and explaining in detail what I need to know.

Last week, I had 2 simple tasks to do, as I was moving out from my appartment and renting it out to a replacement, I had to clean the dishes and pack my clothes into 2 travel bags.

When I write about it now, and read as I go through with my writing, it sounds so simple and not very time consuming. But that was not the case when the task was pending.

After procrastinating for many days, feeling anxious, and eventually breaking down into tears, then falling back into the existential crisis of “why am I even alive”, I finally went, did the dishes, took my clothes, gave the keys and left. It was 1.5 hours job including the transportation and logistics.

Pretty simple!

She explained about cognitive distortion; a new concept I became familiar with and getting acquainted with, because this really describes how Im perceiving things.

Cognitive distortion in simple words means, after a series of traumas and bad events, your brain simply starts lying to you. Imagine a cup half filled with water and half empty. With cognitive distortion, you will see , oh the cup is half empty, my cup is always half empty, that’s how it is with me, I never get a cup full of water, the person who filled the cup must not like me, I am unwanted here because they didn’t fill my cup, I must leave, I’m lonely. It might be that everyone else had a cup half full half empty, might be a mere coincidence, but because your brain has been trained to magnify, correlate things, and generalize, you just saw things, interpreted them and felt things differently.

This starts with how we see, feel and eventually describe things. One good potion , is to try and minimize the event. Oh, cup half empty, well , let me fill it, or if I cant, let me find someone who can fill it. Maybe they did not notice, maybe there was not enough water and that’s okay. It is just a cup. Minimizing the event, the emotion, and the result.

Basically, it is ok, I just have to do the dishes and put my stuff in a bag. It is not about being homesick, or not adapting, or being tired from this city, and the people, my breakup, the betrayals, me not wanting to be alive at this moment. It is just few simple things that take 1.5 hours from my day including transportation and as a result the procrastination was completely unnecessary.

This is just the beginning of learning how to deal with cognitive distortion, and what it does to my feelings and behavior at certain given moments. It does make me feel more fragile and sensitive to small events, taking things more personally and to heart. But that is the beauty of good therapy, you keep learning about yourself, about the situations, what they are called, how normal it is to have them at a given point in time, and once that is established, gaining more knowledge on what they are and the right tools to deal with them.

I strongly encourage you to read and get familiar with what cognitive distortion is, because the next time it happens with you, you will be at least able to identify, that this is it. And the base of every improvement is a foundation of knowledge and learning as ignorance is our first enemy. All I knew, was that I was extremely fragile in the face of small events, I still am, but now, what differs is that I know what this is, if not all of it, at least the biggest part. And from here, I can train my brain to think next time a small thing makes me feel down, and I keep putting it aside, is this really me? Or is it a distorted reality.

Leaving you with a beautiful undistorted image of a Lebanese village taken by my close friend.

A bit on self love

Hey there readers.

As I was sharing always my true and honest experiences, feelings, and lessons.

My therapist asked :” when was the last time you remember loving youself?” Yes indeed, it was hard to answer!

Today I am writing about self love. One form of self love, is self respect. And self respect can manifest in many ways, starting with relationships.

The most painful thing we can experience and do to ourselves, is not love and care for ourselves, before loving and caring for others.

This lack of self love, wherever it comes from, impacts our entire life and choices and actions. We tend to accept things as they are, impress others by overcompensating, try to fit in, be good and nice, accept toxic people in our life just because they “care”.

Recently I learned, how I have let in so many useless people into my personal space. And by personal space I mean, mental space, emotional space, and of course my day to day life. I do admit, if it weren’t for this experience, I would have probably not re organized my priorities and put more focus into myself.

I saw how a partner can ruin someone else’s life and mental health, how few jealous colleagues can sabotage someone’s work progress, how relatives can be manipulative and abusive and set someone back.

All of these are things happening everyday, with all of us, we just dont notice the negativity a person can bring into our life, until after the damage has occured. We look back and see long trail of wasted time and energy over people who dont deserve that much, and most probably held the red flag up high, but we chose to overcome these alarms in an attempt to be “tolerant” and “accepting” to be accepted in return.

Pay close attention to what someone does for you and not what they say. Pay attention what makes you you, and what they reflect on you.

And by what they do, it does not mean the wasted time they spend over fun or money or any other thing. Pay close attention to how they treat your weaknesses, to their honesty, to their clarity, to the effort they put explaining themselves to you so you understand who they are and what they expect from you, pay attention to whether you feel special or easily replaced by some random stranger, pay attention to the natural reassurance , pay attention to how they hold your hand when someone puts you down, but also keep an eye if they are actually the ones that put you down, pay attention to whether they ask about you when you are alone, whether they ask how your first day at the new job went, how much presence they put into your life, even when they are distanced by time and location.

Those who truly care about you, family, friends, a partner, will only make sure, they are reasons for you getting up higher in life, making a better version of yourself, showing you how far you could actually go. People who care, no matter what, will always be there, will always care enough to ask and connect, and will make sure they are fighting with you against all external challenges life puts at you, and not actually put you in a challenging situation.

Pay close attention to the people surrounding you, because these have the most impact on your present and future. Not all what shines is gold, and not all good people are necessarily good to you or for you. And in that sense, make sure you given yourself a reality check, whether you are manipulated or not, guilted into accepting toxic behaviors just because someone has been good to you in a certain situation.

The best thing you can do to yourself, is let go, whether you have a closure or not, your closure is when someone stops asking about you. Your closure is when they manipulate you. Your closure is when you dont feel important. Your closure is when you feel left out.

That is all the closure you need, to stop, cut off and to move forward.

The best thing, and the hardest thing to do, is to stop seeking approval from others, stop seeking external care, and start looking inside to figure out a few answers to “why do I do this”, “what is hurting me about myself”, “what would I like to improve in myself” that eventually you stop looking for others to accept and “fix” you.

Having the ability to self heal gives a great amount of power and freshness to open doors for new people who actually align with your life purpose, and who you are in this world. Giving more self love, gives space to choose people for the right reasons in our life.

When was the last time you stopped caring for a failed relationship or a useless friendship, and actually started asking yourself what do you actually need to fix by yourself in your own life?

How much time, money,care, love, sacrifice, hope and patience we invest into others,without actually knowing the outcome of our investment, instead of doing the same to ourself and knowing for sure it will come with great return.

Love yourself a little bit more, ask who is serving you well, and who is not, and just cut out whoever is consuming you.

Self love, never ends in disappointment or betrayal. Self love is just like how the sun keeps itself, burning, glowing and shining.

Leaving you with a picture of self loving sunset from Lebanon last week.

ู…ุฌุชู…ุน ุงู„ุตู„ูˆุงุช…

ู‡ุง ุงู†ุชู… ุชุฏุนูˆู† ู„ู„ู…ูŠุช ุงู† ูŠุคู†ุณ ุงู„ู„ู‡ ูˆุญุฏุชู‡ ููŠ ู‚ุจุฑู‡ุŒ ูˆุชุชุฑูƒูˆู† ุงู„ุญูŠ ูŠู…ูˆุช ุจุจุทุก ููŠ ูˆุญุฏุชู‡

ูู…ุง ุฏูŠู†ูƒู…ุŸ

ู…ุง ุงู„ุฏูŠู† ุงู„ุฐูŠ ุชุชุจุนูˆู†ู‡ุŒ ุชู‚ุฑุฃูˆู† ูˆุชุฑุฏุฏูˆู† ูˆุชุญูุธูˆู† ุงู„ูƒู„ู…ุงุช. ูˆู…ู† ุซู… ุชุฏูŠุฑูˆู† ุธู‡ูˆุฑูƒู… ุนู„ู‰ ู…ู† ุงุญุจุจุชู… ูˆุงุญุจูƒู…. ู…ุง ุฏูŠู†ูƒู…ุŒ ุชุชุฑูƒูˆู† ุงุตุฏู‚ุงุฆูƒู… ูˆุงู‚ุงุฑุจูƒู… ููŠ ู…ุนุงู†ุงุฉ ู…ุณุชู…ุฑุฉ ู…ุน ู…ุดู‚ุงุช ุงู„ุญูŠุงุฉ. ูˆุซู… ุชุฑุฏุฏูˆู† ุจุนุถ ุงู„ูƒู„ู…ุงุช ููŠ ู…ุญุงูˆู„ุฉ ุงู† ุชุทู‡ุฑูˆุง ุงู†ูุณูƒู… ู…ู† ู‚ุฐุงุฑุฉ ู†ูุงู‚ูƒู…. ู…ุง ุฏูŠู†ูƒู…ุŒุชุณุฎุฑูˆู† ู…ู† ุงู„ู†ุงุณ ุจู‚ุตุฏ ุงู„ู…ุฒุงุญุŒ ูˆู„ุง ุชุฑูˆู† ุจุงู†ูƒู… ุชุฌุฑุญูˆู†ู‡ู…

ู…ุง ุฏูŠู†ูƒู…ุŒ ุชุฃุฎุฐูˆู† ู‚ู„ูˆุจุง ุถุนูŠูุฉุŒ ุชุดูˆู‡ูˆู†ู‡ุงุŒุชุบูŠุฑูˆู† ู…ุนุงู„ู…ู‡ุงุŒ ุชุฑุฏูˆู†ู‡ุง ูˆูƒุฃู† ุดูŠุฆุง ู„ู… ูŠูƒู†. ูˆุชุนูˆุฏูˆู† ู„ุขูŠุงุชูƒู… ุชูƒููŠุฑุง ุนู† ุฐู†ูˆุจูƒู…ุŒ ูˆูŠุนู…ูŠ ุงู„ู†ูุงู‚ ุงุฑูˆุงุญูƒู… ูุชุฑูˆู† ุงู†ูุณูƒู… ู…ู† ุงู„ุงุฎูŠุงุฑ ูˆุงู„ุตุงู„ุญูŠู†.

ู…ุง ุฏูŠู†ูƒู…ุŒ ุชุชูƒู„ู…ูˆู† ููŠ ุงู„ุงูŠู…ุงู† ูˆุงู„ุทู‡ุงุฑุฉุŒ ูˆุญูŠู† ูŠุฃุชูŠูƒู… ุฌุงู‡ู„ ุทุงู„ุจุง ุงู„ุนู„ู… ุจูƒุชุงุจูƒู…ุŒ ุชุฑุฏูˆู†ู‡ ุจุณุฎุฑูŠุฉ ูˆุจุชุณุฎูŠู.

ู…ุง ุฏูŠู†ูƒู…ุŒ ุชุบุทูˆู† ุฑุคูˆุณูƒู…ุŒ ูˆุชุนุฑูˆู† ุฃุฑูˆุงุญุง ู…ู† ู†ู‚ุงุฆู‡ุง ูˆู‚ู„ูˆุจุง ู…ู† ุตูุงุฆู‡ุง.

ู…ุง ุฏูŠู†ูƒู… ุชู‡ุฒุคูˆู† ุจูƒู„ ุงู†ุณุงู† ุŒ ูู‚ุท ู„ุงุฎุชู„ุงูู‡ ุนู†ูƒู…. ูู…ู† ุงู†ุชู…ุŸ

ู…ู† ุงู†ุชู… ุญุชู‰ ุชูˆุถุนูˆุง ู…ุนูŠุงุฑุง ุนู„ู‰ ู…ูŠุฒุงู† ุงู„ู…ู‚ูŠุงุณ ูˆุงู„ู…ู‚ุงุฑู†ุฉุŸ

ู…ุง ุฏูŠู†ูƒู… ุงู„ุฐูŠ ูŠุฌุนู„ ู…ู†ูƒู… ูƒุงุฐุจูŠู† ูˆู…ู†ุงูู‚ูŠู†ุŒ ุชุดูˆู‡ูˆู† ุงู„ุญู‚ุงุฆู‚ ุงู„ุจุณูŠุทุฉุŒ ุชุฌู…ู„ูˆู† ูˆุงู‚ุนุง ู…ุฑูŠุฑุงุŒ ูˆุชุบุทูˆู† ุนู„ู‰ ุชูุงุตูŠู„ุŒ ุจุญุฌุฉ “ุงู„ุทูŠุจุฉ”ุŒ ูˆุนุฏู… ุฌุฑุญ ุงู„ุงุฎุฑูŠู†ุŒ ุชุงุฑูƒูŠู† ุขุซุงุฑ ุงูƒุงุฐูŠุจูƒู… ุงู„ุจูŠุถุงุก ุนู„ู‰ ุทุฑูŠู‚ ุงู„ุณูˆุงุฏ ูˆุงู„ุธู„ู…ุงุช ูˆุงู„ุดูƒูˆูƒ.

ู†ูุงู‚. ู‡ุฐุง ู†ูุงู‚ูƒู…. ููŠ ุฏูŠู†ูƒู… ุงู„ุฐูŠ ุงุฎุชุฑุชู…ูˆู‡ ูˆุญูƒุชู…ูˆู‡ ุนู„ู‰ ู…ู‚ูŠุงุณ ู†ู‚ุตูƒู…. ูˆุฏูŠู†ูƒู… ู„ูŠุณ ู…ู† ุฏูŠู†ู†ุง. ูˆู„ุง ู…ู† ุฏูŠู† ุงู„ู…ุชุฏูŠู†ูŠู†.

ุฏูŠู†ูƒู… ูƒู„ู…ุงุช ุชุฑุฏุฏูˆู†ู‡ุงุŒ ุฏูŠู†ู†ุง ุงูุนุงู„ู†ุง. ุฏูŠู†ูƒู… ุงุฎุทุงุก ุงู†ุงู†ูŠุฉุŒ ุฏูŠู†ู†ุง ุงุฎุทุงุก ู…ู† ุนุทุงุก ู…ูุฑุท.

ุฏูŠู†ูƒู… ุตู„ูˆุงุช ูˆุฏุนูˆุงุช ุจุงู„ู…ุบูุฑุฉ ู„ู…ูŠุช ุŒ ุฏูŠู†ู†ุง ุณุคุงู„ ูŠูˆู…ูŠ ุนู† ุงุญูˆุงู„ ุงู„ุงุญูŠุงุก.

ุงู…ูˆุงุชู†ุง ุจุญุงุฌุฉ ุงู„ูŠู†ุง ุŒ ุฏุงุฆู…ุง ุŒ ูƒูŠ ู†ุณุชุญุถุฑ ูˆุฌูˆุฏู‡ู…ุŒ ูˆู†ุฏุนูŠ ู„ู‡ู… ุจุงู„ุณู„ุงู… ูˆุงู„ุณูƒูˆู†. ูˆู„ูƒู† ุงุญูŠุงุกู†ุง ุจุญุงุฌุฉ ุงู„ูŠู†ุง ู‚ุจู„ ุฐู„ูƒ ุจูƒุซูŠุฑ. ู†ุญู† ู„ุง ุฒู„ู†ุง ุงุญูŠุงุก! ูˆู„ุง ุฒุงู„ ู„ุฏูŠูƒู… ุจุนุถ ู…ู† ุงู„ูˆู‚ุช ู‚ุจู„ ุงู† ุชุฏุนูˆุง ู„ู†ุง ุจุงู„ู…ุบูุฑุฉุŒ ูู‚ุจู„ ุงู† ุชุตู„ูˆุง ูˆุชุฏุนูˆุง ูˆุชุชู†ุณูƒูˆุง ุจูƒุชุจูƒู…. ุงุณุฃู„ูˆุง ุนู† ุงุญูˆุงู„ู†ุงุŒ ู†ุญู† ุงู„ุงุญูŠุงุก ุŒ ุงู„ู„ุฐูŠู† ุขู†ุณุชู†ุง ูˆุญุดุชู†ุง. ูˆู‚ุจู„ ุงู† ุชุฏุนูˆุง ุงู„ู„ู‡ ุงู† ูŠุฑุญู…ู†ุงุŒ ุงุฑุญู…ูˆู†ุง ุงู†ุชู… ุŒ ูˆู‚ุจู„ ุงู† ุชุชุฏูŠู†ูˆุง ุจุฅู„ู‚ุงุก ุตู„ูˆุงุชูƒู…ุŒ ุงุฌุนู„ูˆุง ู…ู† ุงูุนุงู„ูƒู… ุฑุณุงู„ุฉ ุตู„ุงุฉ ูŠุชุฑุฏุฏ ุตุฏุงู‡ุง ููŠ ุงู„ุฃุซูŠุฑ.

ุงุชุฑูƒูƒู… ู…ุน ุตูˆุฑุฉ ู…ู† ู…ุบูŠุจ ุงู„ู…ุฏูŠู†ุฉ ุงู„ุจุดุนุฉ ุงู„ุชูŠ ู„ุง ุชุนุฑู ุฏูŠู†ุง ูˆู„ุง ุตู„ุงุฉ

ุจุงู„ู„ุจู†ุงู†ูŠ ุงู„ู…ุดุจุฑุญ…ุฑุณุงู„ุฉ ุดุฎุต ู„ุจู†ุงู†ูŠ ุน ุจุงู„ูˆ ูŠุญูƒูŠ.

ุงู„ุญูƒูŠ ุจุงู„ู„ุจู†ุงู†ูŠ. ู„ุง ูุตุญู‰ุŒูˆู„ุง ู‚ูˆุงุนุฏุŒ ูˆู„ุง ุงุนุฑุงุจ. ูˆู„ุง ูุนูˆู„ู† ู…ูุงุนูŠู„ู†

ุจูŠุณุฃู„ูˆู†ุง ู„ูŠุด ู…ู†ุญุจ ู„ุจู†ุงู† ู‡ุงู„ู‚ุฏ. ุจูŠุฑุฌุนูˆุง ุจูŠุณุฃู„ูˆู†ุง ู…ุง ุฒุงู„ ุจุชุญุจูˆุง ู„ูŠุด ูู„ูŠุชูˆุง ู…ู†ูˆ. ูŠุชุจุนู‡ ุณุคุงู„ ู„ูˆ ุจุชุญุจูˆู‡ ู„ูŠุด ู‡ูŠูƒ ุนู…ู„ุชูˆุง ููŠู‡. ูˆุจุชุตูŠุฑ ุชุฌูŠูƒ ุณู„ุณู„ุฉ ู…ู† ุงุณุฆู„ุฉ ุงู„ุชุดูƒูŠูƒ ูˆุงู„ุงุณุชุฌูˆุงุจ
ุจุนุฏูŠู† ุจุชุณู…ุนู„ูƒ ูˆุญุฏูŠุฉ : ุงู†ุง ูƒู…ุงู† ุจุญุจ ุจู„ุฏูŠ ูˆุจุดุชู‚ู„ูˆ
ุฑุญ ูˆู‚ููƒ ู‡ูˆู† ูˆู‚ู„ูƒ ุนู…ูˆู„ ู…ุนุฑูˆู ู„ุง ุจู‚ุง ุชุณุฃู„ุŒ ูˆู„ุง ุชุชุณุงุฆู„. ูˆู„ุง ุชู‡ูˆู†ู‡ุง ุนู„ูŠูŠ ุงู†ูƒ ุงู†ุช ูƒู…ุงู† ู…ุดุชุงู‚ ู„ุจู„ุฏูƒ. ูู‡ู…ู†ุงู‡ุง ู‡ูŠุฏูŠ. ุจุณ ุงู†ุช ู…ุง ุฑุญ ุชูู‡ู… ุนู„ุงู‚ุชู†ุง ุงู„ู…ุนู‚ุฏุฉ ุจู„ุจู†ุงู†ู†ุง. ู„ุฐู„ูƒุŒ ุงู„ุงูุถู„ ุจู„ุงู‡ุง ู‡ุงู„ุณูŠุฑุฉ.
ุงู„ู…ูˆุถูˆุน ุจูŠู† ุงู„ู„ุจู†ุงู†ูŠ ูˆู„ุจู†ุงู† ู…ุด ู…ูˆุถูˆุน ุงุดุชูŠุงู‚. ูˆู„ุง ู…ูˆุถูˆุน ู‚ุถูŠุฉ. ูˆู„ุง ู‡ูˆ ู…ูˆุถูˆุน ุจูŠู†ุญู„ ุจุณูุฑุฉ. ูˆู„ุง ุจูŠู†ุญู„ ุจุงู†ุชุฎุงุจุงุช

ู„ุจู†ุงู† ู‚ุตุชู‡ ู‚ุตุฉ. ู…ุง ููŠู†ุง ุงู†ุง ูˆุงู†ุช ู†ู‚ุนุฏ ู†ุญู„ู„ู‡ุงุŒ ูˆู†ููƒููƒ ุนู‚ุฏู‡ุงุŒ ูˆู„ุง ุฑุญ ู†ู„ุงู‚ูŠู„ูˆ ุญู„ ุงุตู„ุง ู„ุฃู† ู…ุง ุฑุญ ู†ุนุฑู ู†ู„ุงู‚ูŠ ุงู„ู…ุดูƒู„ุฉ

ุงูˆู„ ู…ุดูƒู„ุฉ ุงู†ุง ุจู‚ู„ูƒ ุดูˆ ู‡ูŠ. ุงู†ูˆ ู†ุญู†ุง ู…ุด ุจู„ุจู†ุงู†. ุจุฏุงูŠุฉู‹

ุธุงู‡ุฑูŠุงุŒ ุฑุญ ุชู‚ู„ูŠ ูƒูŠู ู…ุง ุนู†ุฏูƒู† ูƒู‡ุฑุจุงุกุŸ ูƒูŠู ูŠุนู†ูŠ ู…ุง ููŠ ู…ูŠุŸ ูƒูŠู ูŠุนู†ูŠ ุนุฌู‚ุฉ ุณูŠุฑ ุณุงุนุชูŠู† ุนู„ู‰ ุทุฑูŠู‚ ุฎู„ุฏุฉุŒ ูˆูƒูŠู ูŠุนู†ูŠ ุฑูŠุญุฉ ุงู„ู…ุณู„ุฎ ุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ู…ุทุงุฑ. ูƒูŠู ูŠุนู†ูŠ ุฒุจุงู„ุฉุŒ ูˆูƒูŠู ูŠุนู†ูŠ ุจู‡ุฏู„ุฉ ุจุงู„ู…ุณุชุดููŠุงุช
ุตุญูŠุญ. ู…ุนูƒ ุญู‚ . ุงู†ุง ู…ุง ุฑุญ ู†ุงู‚ุดูƒ. ู…ุง ุฑุญ ุงู‚ุฏุฑ ุงุตู„ุง. ุตุญูŠุญ ู…ุดุงูƒู„ ู‡ูˆุฏูŠ ู…ุด ู…ุดูƒู„ุฉ ูˆุญุฏุฉ. ู…ุตุงูŠุจ. ุชุนุชูŠุฑ ูŠุนู†ูŠ
ุฑุญ ุชุฌูŠ ุชู‚ู„ูŠ ุญูƒูŠ ุงู„ุงุฎุจุงุฑ ุงู„ูŠ ุงู†ุช ุจุชุณู…ุนูˆุŒ ู…ู† ู‚ู†ูˆุงุช ุงู„ุชู„ูุฒุฉุŒ ูˆุตูˆู„ุง ู„ุงุตุญุงุจูƒ ุงู„ู„ุจู†ุงู†ูŠุฉ ูŠู„ูŠ ูƒู„ ู…ุง ุชู‚ุนุฏ ู…ุนู‡ู† ุจูŠุญูƒูˆุง ุณูŠุงุณุฉุŒ ูˆุฑุญ ุชุฌูŠ ุŒ ุชุนุทูŠู†ูŠ ุญู„ ุนุจู‚ุฑูŠ ุŒ ูˆุชู‚ู„ูŠุŒ ู…ุดูƒู„ุฉ ู„ุจู†ุงู† ุจุชู†ุญู„ ุจุณ ุชุฎู„ุต ุงู„ุทุงุฆููŠุฉ
ุจู‚ู„ูƒ ุดูˆุŸ
ู‡ูŠุฏูŠ ุงู„ุทุงุฆููŠุฉ ู…ุณุชูˆุฑุฏุฉ. ู†ุญู†ุงุŒ ุตู†ุงุนุชู†ุง ุงู„ู…ุญู„ูŠุฉุŒ ุจุชุนู…ู„ ู…ุณูŠุญูŠ ูˆู…ุณู„ู…ุŒ ูŠุนู†ูŠ ุจูŠุฎู„ู‚ ุนู†ุง ุณู†ูŠ ูˆุดูŠุนูŠ ูˆุฏุฑุฒูŠ ูˆู…ุงุฑูˆู†ูŠ ูˆุงุฑุฐูˆุฏูˆูƒุณ ูˆุบูŠุฑูˆ ูƒุชูŠุฑุŒ ู…ุนู†ุงุชูˆุŒ ูุด ุนู†ุง ู…ุดูƒู„ุฉ ุทุงุฆููŠุฉ
ุนู†ุง ูƒูˆูƒุชูŠู„ ุจูŠุนุฌุจ ุฎุงุทุฑูƒ ุจุฎู„ูŠูƒ ุชู‚ุนุฏ ุงู„ู ุณู†ุฉ ุชุญูƒูŠ ูˆุชุณุฃู„ ูˆู…ุง ุชู„ุงู‚ูŠ ุฌูˆุงุจ. ุฑุญ ุชุฌูŠ ุชู‚ู„ูŠ ุงู„ู…ุดูƒู„ุฉ ุจู„ุจู†ุงู† ุณู„ุงุญ ู…ุชูู„ุช ุฑุญ ู‚ู„ูƒ ุตุญ. ู…ุดูƒู„ุฉ ู„ู…ุง ุชุทู„ุน ุชุณู‡ุฑ ูˆุชุงูƒู„ู‡ุง ุฏูƒุฉ ู…ู† ุญูŠุซ ู„ุง ุชุฏุฑูŠ. ู‡ูŠ ุจุตุฑุงุญุฉ ู…ุด ู…ุฒุจูˆุทุฉ. ู…ุด ุถุฑูˆุฑูŠ ุชุทู„ุน ุชุณู‡ุฑุŒ ุจุณ ู…ุฌุฑุฏ ุดุฌุงุนุฉ ูˆุฌุฑุฃุฉ ุงู†ูƒ ุชุทู„ุน ู…ู† ุงู„ุจูŠุช ุดู‡ุงุฏุฉ ุตุฑุงุญุฉ

ุฑุญ ุชุฌูŠ ุชู‚ู„ูŠ ุนู†ุง ู‡ูŠูƒ ูˆุนู†ุง ู‡ูŠูƒ. ุน ุฑุงุณูŠ ูˆุนูŠู†ูŠ. ุจุณ ุนู†ุง ูŠุง ุฎูŠูŠ ู…ุด ู‡ูŠูƒ. ู…ู†ูŠุญ. ุนู†ุง ู…ุด ู‡ูŠูƒ. ูˆู…ุด ุฑุญ ุงู‚ุฏุฑ ุงุดุฑุญู„ูƒ ุดูˆ ูŠุนู†ูŠ “ู‡ูŠูƒ” ุจุงู„ุธุจุท

ูƒูŠู ุจุฏู†ุง ู†ุชูุงู‡ู… ุงุฐุง ุงู†ุช ู…ุด ุนุงุฑู ุดูˆ ูŠุนู†ูŠ ุดุนูˆุฑ ุชุฌูŠ ูƒู‡ุฑุจุฉ ุงู„ุฏูˆู„ุฉ ุฎูŠูŠ.ู…ุด ูุงู‡ู… ูƒู…ูŠุฉ ุงู„ุฑูุงู‡ูŠุฉ ุงู„ูŠ ุจุชุตูŠุฑ ู„ู…ุง ุงู‚ุฏุฑ ุฏูˆู‘ุฑ ุงู„ู‚ุงุฒุงู† ูˆุจู†ูุณ ุงู„ูˆู‚ุช ู†ุดู ุดุนุฑูŠุŒ ุงู†ุณู‰ ุงู„ุดุนุฑุงุช ู‡ูˆุฏูŠ ุดูŠ “ุงูƒุณุชุฑุง”. ุจุฏู†ุง ู†ุฏูˆุฑ ุงู„ุจุฑุงุฏ. ูˆู†ุบุณู„ ู‡ุงู„ุบุณูŠู„ุงุช

ุดูƒุฑุงุŒ ุงู†ูƒ ุนู… ุชุญุณ ู…ุนูŠ. ุจุณ ุงู†ุช ู…ุด ุฑุญ ุชู‚ุฏุฑ ุชุญุณ ู…ุชู„ูŠ. ููŠ ูุฑู‚ ูƒุจูŠุฑ ุจูŠู† ุญุงุณุณ ู…ุนูŠ ูˆุญุงุณุณ ู…ุชู„ูŠ. ู…ุชู„ ุงู„ูุฑู‚ ุจูŠู† ูƒู‡ุฑุจุฉ ุงู„ุฏูˆู„ุฉ ูˆูƒู‡ุฑุจุฉ ุงู„ู…ูˆุชูˆุฑ. ุจุณ ูƒู…ุงู†. ู…ุด ุฑุญ ุงู‚ุฏุฑ ุงุดุฑุญู„ูƒ

ุงู†ุช ู…ุด ุฑุญ ุชูู‡ู… ูƒูŠู ูŠุนู†ูŠ ู…ุง ุนู†ุง ูƒู„ู†ุง ุถู…ุงู† ูˆุชุฃู…ูŠู†. ู…ุง ุฑุญ ุชูู‡ู… ุดูˆ ูŠุนู†ูŠ ุทู„ุงุน ุดูˆู ุงู„ุฏูŠุฌูˆู†ุชูŠุฑ ุงุฐุง ุชูƒ. ู…ุง ุจุชุนุฑู ุดูˆ ูŠุนู†ูŠ ูุชุญูˆุง ุงู„ู…ุฏุงุฑุณ ู‡ุงู„ุดู‡ุฑ ูˆู„ุง ุจุนุฏุŸ ู‚ุงู„ูˆู„ูƒู† ุงูŠู…ุชุง ุทูŠุจ ุงูˆ ุจุนุฏู‡ู† ุงุถุฑุงุจ. ู…ุด ุฑุญ ุชูู‡ู… ูƒูŠู ูŠุนู†ูŠ ู…ุง ููŠ ุจู†ุฒูŠู†. ูˆู„ุง ุฑุญ ุชูู‡ู… ูƒูŠู ูŠุนู†ูŠ ุตุงุฑ ุงู†ูุฌุงุฑ ุจุงู„ู…ุฑูุฃ. ูƒูŠู ูŠุนู†ูŠ ุตุงุฑ ุงู†ูุฌุงุฑ ูˆุงู„ู†ุงุณ ู†ุธูุช ุงู„ุทุฑูŠู‚. ู…ุง ุฑุญ ุชูู‡ู… ุงู„ู„ูŠุฑุฉ ุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ู…ู†ุตุฉ. ูˆุณุคุงู„ ุงู„ุตุจุญูŠุฉ : ู‚ุฏูŠุด ุงู„ุฏูˆู„ุงุฑ ุงู„ูŠูˆู…ุŸ ู…ุง ุฑุญ ุชูู‡ู… ูƒูŠู„ูˆ ุงู„ุชูุงุญ ุจ ูขู ู ู  ู„ูŠุฑุฉ ุงู„ูŠูˆู… ุจูƒุฑุฉ ุจ ูฃู ุŒู ู ู 

ู…ุด ุฑุญ ุชูู‡ู… ุดูˆ ูŠุนู†ูŠ ุฑุงุญูˆุง ู…ุตุฑูŠุงุชู†ุง ุจุงู„ุจู†ูƒ. ูƒูŠู ูŠุนู†ูŠ ุฑุงุญูˆุง. ู‡ูŠูƒ. ุณุงู…ุน ู‚ุตุฉ ุฐู‡ุจ ู…ุน ุงู„ุฑูŠุญุŸ ุงูŠ ู‡ู†ูŠ ู…ุด ู†ุงุทุฑูŠู† ุฑูŠุงุญ ูƒุงู†ูˆุง ุญุชู‰. ุจุณ ุฐู‡ุจูˆุง. ู…ุน ู…ูŠู† ู…ุง ู…ู†ุนุฑู. ู…ู‡ู… ุฐู‡ุจูˆุง ุชู‚ุงุนุฏุŸ ุงู†ุณู‰. ุดูˆ ูŠุนู†ูŠุŸ ุนุงุฏูŠ. ู…ุด ุฑุญ ุชูู‡ู… ู…ูŠู† ู‡ูŠ ุงู… ูƒุงู…ู„ ุงู„ูŠ ุจุชุถู„ู‡ุง ุทุงูŠุฑุฉ ููˆู‚ ุฑุงุณู†ุง ูˆุฐุงูƒุฑูŠู† ุตูˆุชู‡ุง ุจุงู„ุณู…ุง ู…ู† ูˆู‚ุช ู…ุง ุฎู„ู‚ู†ุง ู„ู„ูŠูˆู…. ูˆู‚ุตุฉ ุฌุฏุงุฑ ุงู„ุตูˆุช ุงู„ูŠูˆู…ูŠุฉ. ุงูŠ ู‡ูŠุฏูŠ ุฑูˆุงูŠุฉ ูƒุงู…ู„ุฉ ุจุฏู‡ุง ู‚ุนุฏุฉ ุทูˆูŠู„ุฉ. ู‚ุนุฏุฉ ุงุจูˆ ูฆู  ุณู†ุฉ

ุจู„ุง ู…ุจุงู„ุบุฉ…. ููŠ ู‚ุตุต ูŠู…ูƒู† ุนู†ุฏูƒ ู…ุชู„ู‡ุง ูˆุฒูŠุงุฏุฉ. ุจุณ ู…ุด ุถุฑูˆุฑูŠ ูƒุจุฑ ูˆุฌุนูƒ ูŠู†ู‚ุต ู…ู† ุญุฌู… ูˆุฌุนูŠ

ูˆุฌุนูŠ ุงู†ุง ูƒุดุฎุต ู„ุจู†ุงู†ูŠุŸ

ุงู†ุช ุจุนู…ุฑูƒ ู…ุง ุฑุญ ุชูู‡ู…ูˆ. ูˆู…ุด ู…ุทู„ูˆุจ ุชูู‡ู…ูˆ ุงุตู„ุง. ุจุณ ูˆูุฑ ุนู„ูŠู†ุง ุชุญู„ูŠู„ุงุชูƒ ูˆุญู„ูˆู„ูƒ ุงู„ู…ู‚ุชุฑุญุฉ. ุตุฏู‚ ุงู†ูˆ ุฌุฏูŠ ุงู„ู„ู‡ ูŠุฑุญู…ู‡ุŒูˆุฌูŠู„ู‡ ูƒุงู†ูˆุง ูƒู„ู‡ู† ุฎุงุทุฑ ุนุจุงู„ู‡ู† ุงู„ุญู„ูˆู„ ูƒู„ู‡ุง ู‡ูŠุฏูŠ. ุจุณ ุตุฏู‚ู†ูŠ ู…ุง ู†ูุนุช. ูˆู…ุง ููŠ ุดูŠ ู…ู†ู‡ู† ุงุตู„ุง ุจูŠุฑูƒุจ ุจู…ุทุฑุญ. ู„ุงู† ู„ุจู†ุงู† ุชุญุฏูŠุฏุงุŒ ู…ุด ู…ุนุฑูˆู ุดูˆ ู‡ูŠ ู…ุดูƒู„ุชูˆ. ู…ุดุงูƒู„ูˆ. ุนู‚ุฏูˆ ุงู†ูุตุงู…ุงุชูˆ. ุฌู†ูˆู†ูˆ. ู„ุง ู…ุด ู…ุนุฑูˆู. ุงู„ูŠ ุจู‚ุฏุฑ ู‚ู„ูƒ ูŠุงู‡ุŒ ุงู†ูˆ ุดุงูŠู ู‡ุงู„ู…ุตุงูŠุจ ุงู„ุชุงูู‡ุฉ ูˆุงู„ุตุนุจุฉุŒ ูƒู„ู‡ุง ุนู„ู‰ ุจุนุถู‡ุงุŒ ู…ุง ุจุชุฎู„ูŠ ุงุญุณุงุณู†ุง ูŠุชุบูŠุฑ ู„ุญุธุฉ. ูˆ ุงู„ู…ุดูƒู„ุฉ ุงู†ูˆุŒ ู‚ุฏ ู…ุง ูˆุตู„ู†ุง ุจุจู„ุงุฏ ุงู„ุบุฑุจุฉุŒ ูˆู‚ุนุฏู†ุง ุจุฑุฎุงุก ูˆุฑูุงู‡ูŠุฉ ูˆุชุฑู. ู…ุด ุนู… ูŠูƒูˆู† ููŠ ุงุฑุถ ุชุนุจูŠู„ู†ุง ุนูŠู†ู†ุง ู…ู† ุจุนุฏูˆ ู‡ุงู„ุจู„ุฏ ุงู„ุชุนุจุงู†. ูˆุงุฐุง ุจุชูุชุด ู…ุฒุจูˆุทุŒ ุจุชู„ุงู‚ูŠ ุงู†ูˆ ุงู„ู„ุจู†ุงู†ูŠ ุงู„ู…ุบุชุฑุจุŒ ุนุงูŠุด ุณู†ุชูˆ ุจุตุจุฑ ุญุชู‰ ูŠู†ุฒู„ ุจุงู„ุตูŠููŠุฉ ุน ู„ุจู†ุงู†. ู‡ูŠุฏุง ุงุฐุง ู…ุง ูƒุงู† ุนู… ูŠู†ุฒู„ ูƒู„ ูฃ ุงุดู‡ุฑ ุญุชู‰ ูŠุงุฎุฏ ู†ูุณ ูˆูŠุฑุฌุน. ู‡ูŠุฏุง ุงู„ุจู„ุฏ ุนู‚ุฏู†ุง

ู…ู†ุดูƒูŠ ู…ู†ูˆ ูƒุชูŠุฑุŒ ูˆู…ู†ู‚ุฑู ู…ู† ุงุฎุจุงุฑูˆ ุงูˆู‚ุงุช. ุจุณ ู…ุชู„ ุงู„ุฎุชูŠุงุฑ ุจุงู„ุจูŠุชุŒ ุงุฐุง ุบุงุจุŒ ุบุงุจุช ุงู„ุจุฑูƒุฉ. ู‚ุตุชู†ุง ู…ุด ู‚ุตุฉ ุจู„ุฏ ูˆู…ูˆุงุทู†

ุงู„ู„ุจู†ุงู†ูŠ ุนุงูŠุด ุจุจู„ุฏูˆ ูƒุงู† ู…ุน ูƒู„ ุงู„ู‚ุตุต ุงู„ุฏุฑุงู…ุงุชูŠูƒูŠุฉ. ุจุณ ูƒุงู† ุนู†ุฏูˆ ูƒู…ูŠุฉ ุญุฑูŠุฉ ุฑู‡ูŠุจุฉ. ูƒู…ูŠุฉ ุญูŠูˆูŠุฉ ู…ุง ุจุชู†ู‚ุงุณ ู„ุง ุจุงุฎุจุงุฑุŒ ูˆู„ุง ุจู…ุตุงุฑูŠุŒ ูˆู„ุง ุจุณูŠุงุญุฉ. ุชูุงุตูŠู„ ุญูŠุงุชู†ุง ุงู„ูŠูˆู…ูŠุฉ ูŠู„ูŠ ู…ู†ุนุงู†ูŠ ููŠู‡ุงุŒ ู‡ูŠ ุงู„ูŠ ุฎู„ุชู†ุง ู†ุนูŠุด

ู„ุจู†ุงู† ู‡ูˆ ุนุจุงุฑุฉ ุนู† ูƒูŠู ู†ุญู†ุง ุนุงูŠุดูŠู†ุŒ ูˆูˆูŠู†ุŒ ูˆู…ุน ู…ูŠู†ุŒ ูˆูƒูŠู ู…ู†ุชุตุฑู ูƒู„ ูŠูˆู…ุŒ ูˆู‚ุตุตู†ุง ูˆุนุงุฏุงุชู†ุง ุงู„ูŠ ู…ู†ุนู…ู„ู‡ุง ู…ู† ุงูˆู„ ู…ุง ู†ููŠู‚ ู„ุญุฏ ู…ุง ู†ู‚ุฑุฑ ู†ู†ุงู…. ู„ุงู† ุดุนุจ ุจุถู„ ูุงูŠู‚ ุงู„ู„ู‡ ูˆูƒูŠู„ูƒ. ูุงูŠู‚ ุจุณ ุบุงููŠ ุน ู‚ุตุต ูƒุชูŠุฑ

ู†ูˆุณุชุงู„ุฌูŠุง ู„ุจู†ุงู† ู…ุด ูƒุฐุจุฉ ูˆู…ุด ุฎูŠุงู„ ูˆู…ุด ู…ุจุงู„ุบุงุช. ู„ุจู†ุงู† ู‡ูˆ ู†ุญู†ุง. ู†ุงุณู‡. ู‡ูŠุฏูŠ ุงู„ู†ูˆุณุชุงู„ุฌูŠุง ู‡ูŠ ู„ู…ุฌู…ูˆุนุฉ ุจุดุฑ ู…ู†ุนุฑูู‡ู† ูˆู…ุง ู…ู†ุนุฑูู‡ู†. ูˆู‡ูŠ ู„ุฌุจุงู„ู‡ ูˆุจุญุฑู‡ ูˆุงู„ูˆุงู† ุทุจูŠุนุชูˆ ุงู„ูŠ ุจุชูุฑู‚ุน ูŠู…ูŠู† ุดู…ุงู„. ู…ุง ููŠ ุตูˆุฑุฉ ู…ุชู„ ุงู„ุชุงู†ูŠุฉ. ุญุชู‰ ุจุฌุบุฑุงููŠุชู‡ุŒ ู…ูุตูˆู…

ู†ุญู†ุง ู…ู†ูƒุจุฑ ุจุทู…ูˆุญ ุงู†ูˆ ู†ุณุงูุฑุŒ ู‡ุงู„ู‚ุฏ ู…ุชุนุจู†ุง ู‡ูˆ. ุตุฏู‚ู†ูŠุŒ ู…ุง ุญุฏุง ููŠู†ุง ุจูƒูˆู† ู‚ุงูŠู„ ูˆุงู„ู„ู‡ ุจุฏูŠ ุณุงูุฑ ู…ู† ู‡ุงู„ุจู„ุฏ ูˆุงุณู…ุน ููŠุฑูˆุฒ ุนู… ุชุบู†ูŠ ุฎุฏู†ูŠ ุนู„ู‰ ุจู„ุงุฏูŠ. ุงุจุฏุง. ู†ุญู†ุง ุงุฐุง ูˆุงุญุฏ ู…ุนูˆ ุจุงุณุจูˆุฑ ูˆู‚ุงุนุฏ ุจู„ุจู†ุงู† ู…ู†ุถุญูƒ ุนู„ูŠู‡ุŒ ูˆูŠู„ูŠ ู…ุง ู…ุนูˆุŒ ูƒู„ ุงูุนุงู„ูˆ ุจุงู„ุญูŠุงุฉ ุจุชุตุจ ู†ุญูˆ ู‡ุฏู ูˆุงุญุฏ ุงู†ูˆ ูŠุฃู…ู† ุญูŠุงุฉ ุจุฑุง ุงู„ุจู„ุฏ. ุงุณุง ุฑุญ ุชู‚ู„ูŠ ูƒูŠู ู‡ูŠูƒ ูˆุจุชุญุจูˆ ู„ุจู†ุงู†. ู‡ูˆ ุงูˆู‚ุงุช ุญุชู‰ ู…ุง ุชูƒุฑู‡ุŒ ู…ู† ูƒุชุฑ ู…ุญุจุชูƒุŒ ุจุชูู„. ุฏุฑุงู…ุง ูƒุชูŠุฑ ุงูŠู‡ุŸ

ุงู„ุณู‡ู„ ุงู„ู…ู…ุชู†ุน

ุงู„ุฏุฑุงู…ุง ุงู„ุตุญูŠุญุฉุŒ ุงู†ูƒ ุชุฑูƒุถ ุนุงู„ุทูŠุงุฑุฉ ูˆุชูู„ุŒ ูˆูุฌุฃุฉ ุชู„ุงู‚ูŠ ุบู†ูŠุฉ ููŠุฑูˆุฒ ู…ู† ูฅู  ุณู†ุฉ ู‡ูŠ ู‚ุตุฉ ุญูŠุงุชูƒ ุงู„ูŠูˆู…. ูˆูุฌุฃุฉ. ุชูู‡ู… ุดูˆ ูŠุนู†ูŠ ุนุจุงุฑุฉ “ุฎุฏู†ูŠ ุนู„ู‰ ุจู„ุงุฏูŠ”. ุฏุฎูŠู„ ุงู„ู„ู‡ ุฎุฏู†ูŠ

ุฎุฏู†ูŠ ูˆุฑุฌุนู†ูŠ ุนู„ู‰ ูƒู‡ุฑุจุฉ ุงู„ู…ูˆุชูˆุฑ. ูˆุนุงู„ุชู‚ู†ูŠู†. ูˆุนู„ู‰ ุนุฌู‚ุฉ ุงู„ูƒูˆู„ุง. ูˆุจุงุต ุฑู‚ู… ูค ุงู„ูŠ ูƒู„ ู„ุจู†ุงู† ุจูŠุนุฑู ููŠู‡ ุจุณ ู†ุตู‡ู† ู…ุด ุฑุงูƒุจูŠู† ููŠ ุงุตู„ุง. ุฑุฌุนู†ูŠ ุน ู‚ุฑู ุจูŠุฑูˆุช ุจุงู„ู†ู‡ุงุฑ ุจุณ ุฌูˆู‡ุง ุจู…ุงุฑ ู…ุฎุงูŠู„ ุจุงู„ู„ูŠู„

ุทุงุฆููŠุฉุŸ ุงู†ุช ุทุงู„ุน ุนู„ู‰ ู…ุงุฑ ุดุฑุจู„ ุดูŠ ู…ุฑุฉุŸ ูจู % ู…ุง ุญุฏุง ู…ุณูŠุญูŠ. ู„ู…ุง ุชูˆุตู„ ุงู„ู‚ุตุฉ ู„ู„ู…ุนุฌุฒุงุชุŒ ูƒู„ู†ุง ู…ู†ุขู…ู† ููŠู‡. ุงูˆ ูˆู‚ุช ุชุถูŠู‚ ููŠูƒ ุงู„ุฏู†ูŠุŒ ูˆุชุฏูˆุฑ ู‡ุงู„ุณูŠุงุฑุฉ ุงู„ุชุนุจุงู†ุฉุŒ ูˆุชุทู„ุน ุน ุญุฑูŠุตุง. ูˆุงุญุฏ ุนู… ูŠุตู„ุจ ูˆุงู„ุชุงู†ูŠ ุนู… ูŠู‚ุฑุง ุงู„ูุงุชุญุฉ. ุนุงุฏูŠ. ุญุชู‰ ููŠ ูˆุงุญุฏ ูƒุงูุฑ ู‚ุงุนุฏ ุจุงู„ุฒุงูˆูŠุฉ ุนู… ูŠุชุถุญูƒ ุนู„ูŠู†ุง ุจุณ ู‚ุงุนุฏ ู…ุนู†ุง. ุทุงู„ุนูŠู† ู†ุฑุชุงุญ ู„ุงู† ุดูŠ ุจูƒุฆุจ. ุงูŠุง ุทุงุฆููŠุฉ ูŠุง ุนู…ูŠ. ู‡ูŠุฏูŠ ุงูƒุจุฑ ุณู„ุนุฉ ู…ุณุฎุฑุฉ ู…ุณุชูˆุฑุฏุฉ

ู„ุจู†ุงู† ู‚ุตุชูˆ ู‚ุตุฉ ูˆุญุงู„ุชูˆ ุญุงู„ุฉ ูˆุงู„ู„ุจู†ุงู†ูŠ ุนู„ู‰ ุงุถุฑุจูŠู†ุŒ ูˆู…ุด ุฑุญ ุชูู‡ู… ูˆู„ุง ุถุฑูˆุฑูŠ ุชูู‡ู… ูˆู„ุง ู…ุทู„ูˆุจ ู…ู†ูƒ ุชุนู…ู„ ุดูŠ ู„ุฃู† ุงุตู„ุง ู†ุญู†ุง ูƒ ู„ุจู†ุงู†ูŠุฉ ู…ุด ูู‡ู…ุงู†ูŠู† ูˆู„ุง ุจุฏู†ุง ู†ูู‡ู… ุจู‚ุงุŒ ุงู„ู…ู‡ู… ุญุฏุง ูŠุฑุฌุน ู‡ุงู„ุฏูŠุฌูˆู†ุชูˆุฑ ูˆุฎุท ุงู„ุงุดุชุฑุงูƒ ุงู„ ูฅ ุงู…ุจูŠุฑ ูˆูŠุชูƒ ู…ุง ุจุฃุซุฑ. ู…ุด ุถุฑูˆุฑูŠ ู†ุถูˆูŠ ุบูŠุฑ ุงู„ุถูˆุŒ ูˆุฑุฌุนูˆู„ู†ุง ุงู„ุจู†ุฒูŠู† ูˆู…ุง ู…ู†ุฒุนู„ ุนู„ู‰ ุนุฌู‚ุฉ ุงู„ูƒูˆู„ุง ุจู‚ุง

ู„ุจู†ุงู† ู‚ุตุชูˆ ู‚ุตุฉุŒ ูˆู‚ุตุฉ ุงู„ูƒู†ุงูุฉ ุจูƒุนูƒุฉ ู‚ุตุฉ. ูˆู‚ุตุฉ ุงู„ุจูˆู†ุฌูˆุฑูŠู† ู‚ุตุฉุŒ ูˆุฏุจุณ ุงู„ุฑู…ุงู† ู‚ุตุฉ. ูˆุจูŠุงุฎุชู†ุง ู‚ุตุฉ ูˆู‡ุจู„ู†ุง ู‚ุตุต. ุจุณ ู…ุด ุฑุญ ุชู„ุงู‚ูŠ ู„ุจู†ุงู†ูŠ ู…ุด ู…ุดุชุงู‚ ูˆู…ุญุฑูˆู‚. ู…ุด ุฑุญ ุชู„ุงู‚ูŠ ู„ุจู†ุงู†ูŠ ู…ุชู‡ู†ู‘ูŠ. ุณุงูุฑ ุงูˆ ู…ุง ุณุงูุฑ ุŒ ู‚ู„ุจูˆ ุบุงุตุต… ูˆุงู„ูŠ ุฑุงุญ ูˆุฃู…ู„ูˆ ูƒุจูŠุฑ ุจุถู„ ูŠู‚ูˆู„ ุจูŠุฌูŠ ูŠูˆู… ู†ุฑุฌุน ุน ู„ุจู†ุงู†. ู†ุฑุฌุน ุจุงู„ุฌู…ุน. ู‡ูˆ ุนุงุฑู ููŠ ู…ุชู„ูˆ ูƒุชูŠุฑ ุนู†ุฏู‡ู† ู†ูุณ ุงู„ุญู„ู… ูˆุงู„ุฃู…ู„. ู‡ูŠุฏุง ูƒุงู† ุญู„ู… ุฌุฏูˆุฏู†ุง ู„ู…ุง ูƒุงู†ูˆุง ูŠุณุงูุฑูˆุง….ูˆุฑุซู†ุงู‡. ู…ุง ู†ู‚ูŠู†ุง ุญู„ู… ุฎุงุต ููŠู†ุง ุจุนุฏ ู…ุง ุตุงุฑุชู„ู†ุง ุงู„ูุฑุตุฉ

ู‡ู„ู‚ ุงู†ุช ุนู… ุชู‚ูˆู„ ุดูˆ ุฎุตู†ูŠ ุงู†ุงุŒ ู…ุง ุฎุตูƒ. ุงู†ุง ุจุณ ุนู… ู‚ู„ูƒุŒ ู†ุญู†ุง ุงู„ู„ุจู†ุงู†ูŠุฉ. ุดุนุจ ู…ุชุนูˆุจ ุนู„ูŠู‡ ู…ู† ู†ูุณู‡ ูˆู„ูŠุณ ู…ู† ู†ูุณู‡. ู„ูŠุณ ุงู„ุงุŒ ุชุฑูƒู†ุง ุจุญุงู„ู†ุง ุจู„ุง ุงู„ู†ุตุงุฆุญ ุงู„ุณูŠุงุณูŠุฉ. ู…ุด ู†ุงู‚ุตู†ุง. ูˆุจู„ุง ุงู„ู…ุณุงุฆู„ุงุชุŒ ุงู„ูŠ ุจุชุฌุฑุจ ููŠู‡ุง ุชุชูˆุตู„ ู„ู†ุชูŠุฌุฉ ุงู†ูˆ ู…ุง ู…ู†ุญุจ ู‡ุงู„ุจู„ุฏ. ู„ุง ู…ุง ู…ู†ุญุจูˆุŒ ู†ุญู†ุง ู‡ูˆ ูˆู‡ูˆ ู†ุญู†ุงุŒ ูˆูƒู„ ุงู†ุณุงู† ุธุงู„ู… ู†ูุณูˆ. ุนุงุฏูŠ. ู‡ูˆ ุธุงู„ู…ู†ุงุŒ ูˆู†ุญู†ุง ุธุงู„ู…ูŠู†ูˆ. ุจุณ ู…ุง ุญุฏุง ุจุญุจู†ุง ู‚ุฏูˆุŒ ูˆู„ุง ู†ุญู†ุง ู…ู†ุญุจ ู…ุทุฑุญ ู…ุชู„ูˆ.. ูˆุจุณ ู†ุญู†ุง ู…ุณู…ูˆุญ ู†ุณุจู„ูˆ. ุงู†ุช ู„ุง. ุฏูŠูƒุชุงุชูˆุฑูŠุฉุŸ ู„ุง ุจุณ ู†ุญู†ุง ุงู„ูˆุญูŠุฏูŠู† ุงู„ูŠ ุนุดู†ุงู‡ ูˆุฐู‚ู†ุง ุญู„ูˆู‡ ูˆู…ุฑู‡ ูˆุงู„ูŠ ุจุญู‚ู„ู†ุง ู†ุญูƒูŠ. ุญุงูุธูŠู† ูƒู„ ุชูุตูŠู„ ูˆูƒู„ ุตุบูŠุฑุฉ ูˆูƒุจูŠุฑุฉ

ุงู†ุช ููŠูƒ ุชู†ุฒู„ ู„ุนู†ุงุŒ ูŠุง ู…ูŠุฉ ุงู‡ู„ุง ูˆุณู‡ู„ุงุŒ ูˆุฌุฑุจ ุนูŠุด ู…ุนู†ุง ุจุชูุงุตูŠู„ ุญูŠุงุชู†ุง ุงู„ูŠูˆู…ูŠุฉ ุงู„ุชุงูู‡ุฉ ูˆุงู„ู…ุชุฎู„ูุฉ. ุตุฏู‚ู†ูŠ ุฑุญ ุชุญุจูˆ ูƒุฃู†ูˆ ู‚ุทุนุฉ ู…ู†ูƒ. ูˆุจุนุฏุงู† ุฑุญ ุชูู‡ู… ุงู†ูˆ ู…ุง ููŠ ุดูŠ ู…ูู‡ูˆู…

ุงู„ู…ู‡ู…ุŒ ูˆุฎุชุงู…ุง

ู‡ูŠุฏูŠ ุงู‡ุฏุงุก ู„ูƒู„ ู„ุจู†ุงู†ูŠ ู‚ุงุนุฏ ุจุฑุง ูˆู‚ุฑูุงู† ุนูŠุดุชูˆ

ุตุฏู‚ุช ุงู„ูŠ ุบู†ุช “ุจุญุจูƒ ูŠุง ู„ุจู†ุงู†ุŒ ูŠุง ูˆุทู†ูŠ ุจุญุจูƒ”. ูˆุงู„ู„ู‡ ูŠุนูŠู†ู†ุง ุนู„ูŠูƒุŒ ูˆูŠุนูŠู†ูƒ ุนู„ูŠู†ุง. ูˆูŠุนูŠู†ู†ุง ุนู„ู‰ ูƒู„ ุบุฑูŠุจ ูˆู‚ุนูƒ ุจุงู„ู…ุงุถูŠ ุŒ ูˆุนู… ูŠูˆู‚ุนูƒ ุŒ ูˆู†ุงูˆูŠ ูŠูˆู‚ุนูƒ ูฅู  ุณู†ุฉ ู„ู‚ุฏุงู…

ูƒู… ุตูˆุฑุฉ ุญู„ูˆุฉ ู„ุงุฌู…ู„ ู„ุจู†ุงู†

ูˆุงู†ุชู‡ุช ู†ุดุฑุฉ ุงู„ุฏุฑุงู…ุง ู„ู„ูŠูˆู…

How we love.

Since we can remember humanity’s existence, we can see how love has impacted every single aspect of our history. From simple art, to devastating wars.

It is against human nature to say : forget about love. It is what we are made of, and the reason we keep existing, and basically, saying such thing goes against our own survival instinct.

Love spreads its roots anywhere and to anything. From loving a person, to loving a land.

I decided to write about this today. I’ve been wondering a lot. And there will be endless generations after me, who will take on the path and keep wondering. What is love. Where does it come do we know its does it reveal itself.

Probably if we knew all the answers, we would have resolved so many of our own complexes so easily. So, this writing, will not lead to any definitive answer, or concrete fact.

Love is kindness, love is care, love is trust, love is gratitude, love is belongingness, love is whole, it is peace, it is help, it is mercy, love is empathy, love is a giver, love is healing,love is patient, love is colorful, love is fair. It is home, wherever it is. Love, is the one and only safety boat that would get us,fragile humans, through the stormy waves of life.

How people show love, is not bound to one way. It is how we were taught to show it. Some by being tough and strict, others by being overprotective, by giving space, by being attached, by sharing all the joys, some by hiding all the pains, by being there all the time, by caring for the tiny details of a simple daily life,some show love by hugs, by touch, some by words or even looks. There are 7 billion ways how to show love, and none of them looks like the other, but there is one concrete thing that no matter where and how and when, it is true, that love cannot be hidden, bottled up or contained. Love will always find a way, to show up uncovered, one way or the other.

I’m sure you are reading and thinking, if love is all this, why does it cause so much trouble, so much stress, so much problems.

Because expressing love is relative.

The way each one of us shows love, is the way we expect to receive it as well. And as we use our own unique styles to express what’s inside of us, we forget that love is about the receiving end, and not the one giving it. As love is not selfish,as love is empathetic, it will look to the receiver, and provide what they seek. And as we heal by healing others, our love goes from inside, to the person, adding up their love, giving it back to us, and then adding up our own love.

We fail to show our love, because we show it the way we want it, but it is actually all about the other. And for that we need a great amount of understanding. Of reading, interpreting, analyzing, and eventually, giving what the person needs. And this, is the hardest part of all. That is why, we fail in maintaining relationships. When both ends provide what is needed, there is enough clarity on the language of love. If we speak 2 different languages, and we learn how to speak both, then there is never room for things to be lost in translation, there is never room for frustration.

Understanding, is the toughest task of all. Because it requires a lot of logic, and love does not go from the logical part of the brain. But what understanding can do, goes way further than what love can do on its own. And how difficult it is to understand, when we are in the middle of our own internal struggles and pains and randomness. Humans are fragile indeed, but are very complex creatures. Till day, we are unable to resolve so many mysteries about our own nature. And we expect others to understand us, if we didn’t manage to understand our own selves.

Seems like a dead end?

Never. As long as we have our survival instinct, we will always find ways around. There is one thing we are fully in control of, and that is communication. If we try to communicate our expectations, our needs, our likes and dislikes, we pave the way for a better understanding, we give room for more inspiration, and with better understanding, well you know how it goes now…

Love is not that difficult, love is love. We make it difficult with our own actions.

With all that being said, if you are reading this and you love someone, I hope you put your ego aside, your insecurites, your lack of understanding of the other person, the ways you were shown as a kid how love should be, your fears and troubles, and simply ask the person, what can I do better to show you my love?

Leaving you with a picture of what I love the most in this world.

ุณู„ุณู„ุฉ ุงุนุชุฐุงุฑุงุช..

ู„ุนู„ู‘ ูƒุชุงุจุงุชูŠ ุบู…ุฑู‡ุง ุฌูˆ ู…ู† ุงู„ุญุฒู† ููŠ ุงู„ูุชุฑุงุช ุงู„ุงุฎูŠุฑุฉ ู…ู† ุญูŠุงุชูŠ. ู„ุนู„ ุงุญุงุฏูŠุซูŠ ุชุณูˆุฏู‡ุง ู‡ุงู„ุฉ ู…ู† ุงู„ุณูˆุงุฏุŒ ูˆุฑุจู…ุง ุงุตุจุญ ุงู„ูƒุซูŠุฑูˆู† ูŠุณุชุซู‚ูู„ูˆู† ุฌูŽู„ูŽุณุงุชูŠ. ูุทุงู‚ุชูŠ ุงุฎุชู„ูุช. ูˆุฃู†ุง ู„ู… ุฃุนูุฏ ุฃุนุฑูู†ูŠ

ู„ู… ุฃุนูุฏ ุฃุนุฑูู†ูŠ ูˆุฃุตุจุญุช ุงู„ู†ุงุณ ููŠ ุญูŠุงุชูŠ ุชุฐูƒุฑู†ูŠ ุจู‚ุทุนู ู…ู† ู†ูุณูŠ. ู‚ุทุนู ุถุงุฆุนุฉู ู…ู†ูŠ ุงุดุชู‚ุช ุงู† ุงู„ุชู…ุณู‡ุง ููŠู‘

ุนู†ุฏู…ุง ุฒุฑุช ู„ุจู†ุงู† ููŠ ุงู„ุตูŠู ุงู„ู…ุงุถูŠุŒ ุฌู„ุณุช ู…ุน ุตุฏูŠู‚ ู„ูŠ ู…ู† ุงูŠุงู… ุงู„ุฌุงู…ุนุฉุŒ ูˆูƒุงู† ู‡ูˆ ู…ู‚ูŠุงุณูŠ ู„ู†ูุณูŠ ู…ุน ู†ูุณูŠุŒ ูƒู… ุบูŠู‘ุฑูŽุชู’ู†ูŠ ุงู„ุฃูŠุงู… ุฏูˆู† ุงู† ุงุฏุฑูƒ. ูˆูŽุถูŽุนู’ู†ุง ูู†ุงุฌูŠู† ุงู„ู‚ู‡ูˆุฉุŒ ูˆููŠ ุฒุญู…ุฉ ุงู„ุฏู‘ูุฎุงู†ู ุญูˆู„ูŠุŒ ู‚ุงู„ ู„ูŠุŒ “ู…ุงุฐุง ุญุตู„ ู„ูƒุŸ ูƒู… ุฃู†ุช ู‡ุงุฏุฆุฉ! ูƒุงู†ูŽ ุตูˆุชููƒู ู„ุง ูŠูŽุณู’ุชูƒูŠู†”. ุทุจุนุงู‹ุŒ ู…ุฑู‘ุช ูฆ ุณู†ูˆุงุช ุนู„ู‰ ุชุฎุฑู‘ูุฌูู†ุงุŒ ูฆ ุณู†ูˆุงุช ู†ุตูู‡ุง ููŠ ุจูŠุฑูˆุช ูˆู†ุตูู‡ุง ููŠ ุงู„ุบูุฑุจุฉ. ูˆู…ุง ุฃุฏู’ุฑุงู†ูŠ ู…ุงุฐุง ุชูุนู„ ูฆ ุณู†ูˆุงุชู ุจุถุญูƒุฉู ุตุงุฎุจุฉูุŒ ูˆู†ูุณู ู…ุชุดูˆู‚ุฉูุŒ ูˆุฅู†ุณุงู†ู ู…ุชูุงุฆู„. ุฃู…ู‘ุง ู‡ูˆุŒูƒู…ุง ู‡ูˆุŒ ุชุบูŠุฑ ู‚ู„ูŠู„ ู…ู†ู‡ุŒ ุชู„ูƒ ุงู„ุทููˆู„ุฉ ุนู†ุฏ ู‚ูŠุงุฏุฉ ุงู„ุณูŠุงุฑุงุช ู„ุง ุฒุงู„ุชุŒ ู„ูƒู†ู‡ุง ุชุญูˆู„ุช ู„ู…ู‡ู†ุฉ ูˆุฐู„ูƒ ุงู„ุดุบู ุชุญูˆู„ ู„ู…ุตุฏุฑ ุฑุฒู‚. ูˆุชู„ูƒ ุงู„ูƒู„ู…ุฉุŒ “ู‡ุงุฏุฆุฉ”ุŒ ู„ู… ุฃุนุฑู ูˆู‚ุนู‡ุง ุนู„ู‰ ุฃุฐู†ูŠ. ุฃูุฑุญุŸ ู‡ู„ ุงู†ุง ู†ุถุฌุชุŸ ุงู… ุงุญุฒู†ุŸ ูู‚ุฏุช ูˆู‡ุฌูŠ ูˆุดุฑุงุฑุชูŠ ูˆุถุญูƒุชูŠ ุงู„ุชูŠ ูƒุงู†ุช ุชู…ู„ุฃ ูƒู„ ู…ูƒุงู†

ุฅุนู’ุฐุฑูˆู†ูŠุŒ ูุฃู†ุง ู„ู… ุฃูŽุนูุฏ ุฃุนุฑูููู†ูŠ

ุฅุนุฐุฑูˆุง ุญุฏูŠุซูŠ ุงู„ู…ุชูƒุฑุฑุŒ ุนู† ู†ูุณ ุงู„ู‚ุตุต. ูˆู†ูุณ ุงู„ุงู…ุงูƒู† ุงู„ุชูŠ ู„ุง ุฃุญุจู‡ุงุŒ ูˆุฅุนุฐุฑูˆุง ุญุฏูŠุซูŠ ุงู„ู…ู†ุญุงุฒูŽ ุนู† ูˆุทู†ูŠ ุงู„ุตุบูŠุฑ ุงู„ู…ุฏู…ู‘ุฑุŒ ุงู„ุฐูŠ ุฑุบู… ุฏู…ุงุฑู‡ุŒ ุฃูุตุฑู‘ู ุนู„ู‰ ุชุฌู…ูŠู„ู‡ุŒ ูู‡ูˆ ููŠ ุบุฑุจุชูŠ ุนุฒูˆุฉูŒ ู„ูŠ. ูˆู‡ูˆ ููŠ ุชุดุฑูŠุฏูŠุŒ ู…ุณูƒู†ูŠุŒ ูˆู‡ูˆ ููŠ ุฎูˆููŠุŒุฃู…ุงู†ูŠู’. ู‡ูˆ ููŠ ุฎุถู…ู‘ ูƒู„ู‘ ู…ุฌู‡ูˆู„ูุŒ ุฑุบู… ุชู‚ู„ู‘ูุจู‡ุŒ ูŠู‚ูŠู†ูŠ

ุงุนุฐุฑูˆุง ุฏู…ูˆุนูŠ ุงู„ู…ุชูƒุฑุฑุฉุŒ ุนู„ู‰ ุงุดูŠุงุก ุชุงูู‡ุฉุŒ ุงุนุฐุฑูˆุง ุชุทู„ุจูŠุŒ ุงุนุฐุฑูˆุง ุญุฏูŠุซูŠ ุนู† ู†ูุณูŠ ูˆุญุงู„ูŠ ุงู„ู„ุงู…ุชู†ุงู‡ูŠ. ุงุนุฐุฑูˆุง ุญุงู„ุชูŠ ุงู„ู…ุชุญูˆู„ุฉ ู…ู† ุฌู†ูˆู† ูˆุตุฎุจ ุงู„ู‰ ู‡ุฏูˆุก ูˆุณูƒูˆู† ุณุงุฑุญ. ุงุนุฐุฑูˆุง ุงุบุงู†ูŠ ุงู„ุญุฒูŠู†ุฉ. ูˆู„ูˆู†ูŠ ุงู„ุฑู…ุงุฏูŠ ุงู„ุฐูŠ ูƒุฃู†ู‡ ู„ุง ูŠุฒูˆู„ ุนู†ูŠ. ุงุนุฐุฑูˆุง ุชุนู„ูŠู‚ุงุชูŠ ุงู„ุนู…ูŠู‚ุฉุŒ ูˆุนุฏู… ุชู‚ุจู„ูŠ ู„ู„ู…ุฒุงุญุŒ ูˆุนุฏู… ูู‡ู…ูŠ ู„ุฃุดูŠุงุก ูƒุซูŠุฑุฉ

ู„ู… ุงุนุฏ ุงุนุฑูู†ูŠ. ูˆู„ู… ูŠุนุฏ ุงู„ูƒุซูŠุฑูˆู† ูŠุนุฑููˆู†ู†ูŠ. ุงู„ุง ุงูˆู„ุฆูƒุŒ ุงู„ุฐูŠู† ุนุฑููˆุง ุฑูˆุญูŠุŒ ู…ู† ู‡ูŠุŒ ู…ู† ูƒุงู†ุชุŒ ูˆู…ู† ุชูƒูˆู†

ุงุดุชู‚ุช ู„ู†ูุณูŠุŒ ูˆุงู„ุถุญูƒุฉ ุงู„ุชูŠ ุชูƒุณุฑ ู‡ู…ูˆู… ุฌุจุงู„ุŒ ูˆุตู„ุงุจุฉ ุนู‚ู„ูŠ ููŠ ูˆุฌู‡ ูƒู„ ุงู†ูƒุณุงุฑุฉ. ุงุดุชู‚ุช ู„ู‡ุง

ุงุนุฐุฑูˆู†ูŠ ุงู† ุงุชุนุจุชูƒู… ุจูƒู„ุงู…ูŠุŒ ูˆุชุตุฑูุงุชูŠุŒ ูˆู…ุดุงุนุฑูŠ ุงู„ู…ุชุจุนุซุฑุฉุŒ ุงู„ู…ุชุทู„ุจุฉุŒ ุงู„ู…ุชุญุณุณุฉุŒ ูˆุณู„ุจูŠุชูŠ ุงู„ุชูŠ ูƒุงู†ุช ูŠูˆู…ุง ุงูŠุฌุงุจูŠุฉ ูˆู…ุตุฏุฑ ู„ุชุดุฌูŠุน ุงู„ูƒุซูŠุฑูŠู†. ุงุนุฐุฑูˆู†ูŠ ุงู† ูู‚ุฏุช ู†ูุณูŠ ูˆู„ู… ูŠุณุงุนุฏู†ูŠ ุดูŠุก ููŠ ุงุณุชุนุงุฏุชู‡ุง. ุงุนุฐุฑูˆู†ูŠ ุงู† ู„ู… ุงุณุชู…ุน ู„ู†ุตุงุฆุญ ู„ุง ุชุญุงูƒูŠ ุขู„ุงู…ูŠุŒ ูˆุงู† ูƒู†ุช ุงุดุนุฑ ุงู† ู…ุง ุงุดุนุฑ ุจู‡ ุงุณูˆุฃ ู…ุง ูŠูƒูˆู† ุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ุฑุบู… ู…ู† ุตุบุฑู‡ ู„ู„ูƒุซูŠุฑ. ุงุนุฐุฑูˆู†ูŠ ุงู† ูƒุงู†ุช ุงููƒุงุฑูŠ ุณู„ุจูŠุฉ ูˆุงู† ูƒู†ุช ุงุดูƒ ุจูƒู„ ุดูŠุก. ูุฃู†ุง ุฏูุนุช ุซู…ู† ุตุฏู‚ูŠ ูˆุจุฑุงุฆุชูŠ ุจุงู†ูƒุณุงุฑุงุช ูƒุจูŠุฑุฉ ูˆุฏู…ูˆุน ู„ู… ุชุฑู‡ุง ุงู„ุง ูˆุณุงุฏุชูŠ

ุตุฏู‚ูˆู†ูŠุŒ ุนู„ู‰ ู‚ุฏุฑ ุงุฒุนุงุฌูŠ ู„ูƒู…ุŒ ุงู†ูŠ ุงุฒุนุฌู†ูŠ ุงูƒุซุฑ. ูุฃู†ุง ู„ุง ูŠู…ูƒู†ู†ูŠ ุงู„ู‡ุฑูˆุจ ู…ู†ูŠ… ูˆุฃู†ุง ู„ุง ุงุญุจ ู‡ุฐู‡ ุงู„ู†ุณุฎุฉ ุนู†ูŠ

ุณู†ุนูˆุฏุŒ ุนู†ุฏู…ุง ูŠุญูŠู† ุงู„ูˆู‚ุช.ูˆุนู†ุฏู…ุง ุชุทูŠุจ ุงู„ุฌุฑูˆุญ. ูˆุนู†ุฏู…ุง ุชุณุชูƒูŠู† ุงู„ุฑูˆุญุŒ ูˆุนู†ุฏู…ุง ุชู‡ุฏุฃ ุงู„ุงููƒุงุฑ. ูˆุณู†ุถุญูƒุŒ ูˆู†ู‚ู ุจุตู„ุงุจุฉ ููŠ ูˆุฌู‡ ุงู„ุงุญุฒุงู†. ุงู…ุง ุงู„ุงู†ุŒ ูุฏุนูˆู†ุง ู†ูƒูˆู†. ุจู„ุง ุณุคุงู„ุŒ ูˆุจู„ุง ู†ุตุงุฆุญุŒ ูˆุจู„ุง ุดูŠุก. “ู‡ู„ ุญุตู„ ุดูŠุก” ู‚ุฏ ูŠูƒูˆู† ู…ู† ุงูƒุซุฑ ุงู„ุฃุณุฆู„ุฉ ุฅูŠู„ุงู…ุงู‹. ุญุตู„ ูƒู„ ุดูŠุก….. ูˆุนู„ู‰ ูุชุฑุงุช ุทูˆูŠู„ุฉ…. ูˆู‡ุง ุฃู†ุง ู‡ูƒุฐุง ุงู„ุขู†

ู„ุณุช ุจุญุงุฌุฉ ู„ุดูŠุกุŒ ุฑุจู…ุง ุนุฒูˆู…ุฉ ุนู„ู‰ ูู†ุฌุงู† ู‚ู‡ูˆุฉุŒ ูˆุตู…ุช ูƒุจูŠุฑ. ุนู„ ุงู„ู„ู‡ ูŠุดูุนุŒ ูˆูŠุฑุญู…ุŒ ูˆุชู‡ุฏุฃ ุงู„ุงุญูˆุงู„ุŒ ูˆุงุนูˆุฏ ู„ุตุฎุจูŠุŒ ูˆุฌู†ูˆู†ูŠุŒ ูˆุตุฏุฃ ุถุญูƒุชูŠ

ุงุดุงุฑูƒูƒู… ุตูˆุฑุฉ ุบุงู„ูŠุฉ. ุฑุฃูŠุชู‡ุง ููŠ ู…ู‚ู‡ู‰. ููŠ ุทูŠู‘ุงุชู‡ุง ุฌููˆู† ุชุญูƒูŠ ุงู„ู ุญูƒุงูŠุฉ. ูˆ ุชุญู…ู„ ุงู„ู ุดุฎุต. ูˆุงู„ู ุฐูƒุฑู‰

The Unseen Postulates

I recently moved to a new flat. After 3 months of travelling, coming back to a strange city and a strange house, seems to be overwhelming.The nice thing though, is my bed has a very nice view, where I can allow the nostalgia to go and wander as it wishes.

For 2 nights, a part of a series of countless nights, I feel as I do not exist.

Loneliness is a state of being. It can exist between hundreds of people, and it can get worse when its left to its own.I am getting used to it…my loyal companion.

I pick up my phone, expecting my close beings would remember to ask, how was the first night in your new place, how did you manage to get your things, hey, I miss you, or something that would sincerely show, a genuine touch of love and care. I find my linkedin notifications instead , and try to train myself on the disappointment. And I keep telling myself the same, dont expect anyone to check up, keep opening the phone to make sure you get used to it. But again, what did we say about expectations?

Is it that, the people who bring value to our life, are actually not, and we allow them to bring the value. Is it that, those we give importance to, start subconsciously falling into a comfort zone where they take us for granted. They take our care, our existence, words, and affection, all for granted.

The effect ,one lonely night can do to a human soul, can be for indefinite future days and nights. We ourselves dont know the impact of our own solitude on our wellbeing, until later in time, when we become bit too emotional, bit too tired, and bit traumatized, that we begin to figure out, what tiny fractures loneliness did to our souls.

People are running back and forth, work, going out, family, friends, so many things. And there is always room for one person to have frozen time, where they feel nothing, see nothing, do nothing.

Dont let a close person ask for a kind word, don’t let them ask for what is known to be needed. In religion, they tell you not to let the other person ask for what they need, they tell you to bring out the empathy and expect what the person is in need of, and give it, to avoid the embarrassment of asking. Why do we do that with money, but fail to do with emotion and communication. We should not wait for the people around us to ask for our attention,we should not wait till others fall apart to give them what they might be strongly in need of. Attention, follow up, simple messages, good mornings and good afternoons, simple words of endearment, little reminders that we care even within the busiest of our days, an invite for a coffee, or maybe a walk outside, a simple hey hope you are doing well lets talk when we are both free.

What is life, without these unseen postulates of human care,and what are we if we fail to give each other these things at the time they are needed.

Leaving you a nice picture of Prague with its expectedly continuously changing weather.

Life behind expectations

It has been a while since I wrote. Many thoughts, not enough inspiration to align them. This time though, it’s expectations…

How many times have u heard or said, “don’t expect from me”?

Expectations are thoughts we get according to certain given events, facts and actions around us.

Asking this, we ask human kind to be less of its human nature. What does it mean, dont expect. We live our life, based on expectations. We expect that we will live, and based on that mere thought, all our actions and plans are oriented. And we live on this hope of our expectations. We expect to study, work, buy a house, a car, to love, have friends, give and reciprocate love. Aren’t these all expectations?

Imagine life telling you, don’t expect. And you actually do it. Then what would we be doing to ourselves.

Almost everybody shares the same notion : “stop having expectations”. How applicable is that? And if you do it, how do you actually feel?

Expectations, to me, are equations of balance. I expect to eat healthy, and have good health, and if for some reason I don’t, disappointment would happen. Expectations are motivations we carry within our hearts and minds, that allow us to live each day despite the tiredness of the one before.

I think people say don’t expect, as simple excuses to not give back what should be given. Whatever the reasons are. If we manage expectations, we can better manage the balance of relationships. If we clarify what we want, what we need, what we are able to give, and what we are aiming towards, things become just easier.

So far, I have been told I have high expectations. I cannot though,point out what “high” actually means. How can a person measure them? As this is a completely subjective experience, describing someone elses expectations as high or low, would not be fair. Yes, indeed, if we manage to live without expectations, we will live in a null zone. We wont look forward, we wont feel, we wont hope, and deffinitely won’t be able to dream. And what is life, without a bit of these random human emotions that come along.

Expectations, would not be actually called expectations, if our intentions and desires were cleared, and if we actually gave back to the people around. They would simply be called outcomes.

From the randomness of my thoughts, I share with you the dawn moon in Prague.

A simple drive…

I start typing and then I stop. Three, four times. Then I pick up the phone again. And I start a new draft. And thats the mind of a troubled human. It goes back and forth. Stops.starts again. I am in the farthest point I have ever been from home.

Today, I was waiting my uber driver, without any internet. And so I anticipated his arrival time as it showed, as I am in a new place, not so familiar with the address, we could not meet and he cancelled my ride. I started crying, again, found my soul, getting tired from such a simple thing, feeling lost, homesick, and homeless inside. After I shed few tears, I said, you are strong, no need to cry for this, just find a solution.

I went in a nearby restaurant, with hot tears in my eyes, and asked for wifi. The guys eyes showed much empathy. And he gave me a hotspot. I ordered a car again, and waited outside. A lady came out and asked me, are you okay, do you need any help? I have missed this kind of kindness from people. And I smiled, with some more tears falling as I reply, thank you I am just bit tired.But thank you for asking me.

The new driver came, and asked me how I am. First reply was Im fine. Then I shared how the first car cancelled. As my eyes watered again. He said sorry this happened to you. And then asked me where Im we started speaking, he shared some Arabic words he knew. The effort put into these attempts to try and connect with a total stranger like me, are efforts I will always ex military, and police officer, who has seen countless dead bodies, gun strikes, and who has sensed the smell of death for 15 years, was trying to comfort me, with the best way he knew. I asked how it felt. How it felt to survive these pains, how it felt to go back to an “ordinary” life. “This seems like a different world to me, I have seen it behind a tv screen, and never met someone who has actually lived this” I said. “You never forget these things, you remember, but I think of all the people I helped, and that helps me” he mentioned. And he continued…” In life, you will give your energy to people, to help, and then its their job what they do with what you give”. “I am sharing this energy with you now, giving you some positivity, you take it, and give it to someone else”.

With this being said, I told him you see why my first driver, cancelled, because life wanted me to sit here and hear to this, I really needed it today”. Specifically, today, when my mind is sinking back to the darkness. Someone was sent to me, to remind me.

With this story I end today, to share more with time…

Give to someone, what you have received today. They may be, just like me, in the darkness, needing this tiny beam of light.